It was a BEAUTIFUL LETDOWN when I crashed and burned, when I found myself ALONE, UNKNOWN, and HURT...It was a BEAUTIFUL LETDOWN the day I knew when all the riches this world had to offer me would never do...In a world full of bitter pain and bitter doubt, I was trying so hard to FIT IN FIT IN, until I found out...
Name:Francis Country:United States State:California Birthday:3/13/1975 Gender:Male
Interests:Music; The Beach; Introspection; All forms of art; Discovering God, truth, beauty, depth, and freedom, in the most unlikely and most unexpected places. Expertise:Being a loser Occupation:Student Industry:Hospitality
John Mayer is a genius. If I haven't acknowledged it before, I want to acknowledge it now. A lot of debate is going on about this new single but if you look beyond the surface, and if you watch the video, what John Mayer accomplishes in this seemingly simple song is beyond amazing. He captures the restlessness and the despair of humanity. But more so, he places in front of all people in an act of utter vulnerability, his very own restlessness and despair. It's a sad place to be to seemingly have it "ALL" and still not have the stuff that really matters and satisfies.
It's 5:00 am in New York City as the video begins and he recalls the "fun" night he just had with his friends. But watch him in the video. Watch his face. Throughout all the fun moments, you can sense his deeper disinterest and malaise. I especially love his reference to "fake love". We settle. We settle for things that don't really fully satisfy. Maybe because we mistakenly believe that there's nothing else in this world besides "fake love".
John Mayer masterfully shows that pleasure is much different from joy. Our culture and our society make us believe that what we should attain is pleasure. But our deeper selves and souls tell us the truth: what we were created for is JOY. Pleasure is superficial. Joy comes through sacrifice.
I relate to this song a lot. I think about Michael Phelps and how he was caught in a picture taking a bong hit. It makes me thing about the reality that although so many people can love you, not everyone knows you and loves you on the deep level. They only love you on the surface. But we were made to be known deeply and to be loved deeply. When we aren't loved on that deep level in the way we were created, we will settle for "fake love" which only creates and even greater chasm of despair and loneliness between ourselves and others. So who says "I can't get stoned?" Sometimes when you're so desperate for real love and can't get it, you'll reach for anything, even the bad things you know which will destroy you in the end.
Choose JOY over pleasure. Seek real, authentic LOVE instead.
Xanga told me to sign in and post or else they were gonna cancel my account. I like reading old blog entires and didn't want them to shut me down. So here's a post.
So...you were watching TV and saw an assuming commercial for JCPenney and heard a song that made you warm and fuzzy inside. It's called "All That I Want" by a folk group called The Weepies.
I know...I am obsessed with FOLK music. But dang...how can you not love folk music. It's my new fave Christmas Song....second to Coldplay's Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas.
I went with John Yumul to the Appetite for Construction Tour at the Bren Events Center at UCI last Tuesday and had a BLAST. What an absolute blessing to watch these two bands perform live. It inspired me so immensely. The words to their songs always bring me to a deep place in myself where I can ask the REAL questions.
I told Yumul that I liked both Switchfoot and Relient K best slowed-down, down-tempo, and acoustic. Because when they sing their songs like this [stripped and unplugged] you can really focus on the words of what they are trying to convey in their songs. It was a blessing to be there. It makes me want to play my guitar(s) again and write meaningful songs.
Here are a couple of my faves:
Switchfoot's Dare You to Move: ...the tension's right here. Between who you are and who you could be, between how it is and how it should be.
Relient K's The Best Thing: ... all my life I've been searching for you. How did I survive in this world before you? Cuz I don't wanna live another day without you now.
A Heroes episode that kept me on the edge of my seat! Did you see that last night?!?!? WOW! Too bad the writer's strike is gonna end the momentum this show has finally built up. Too bad. That was too cool seeing Elle electrocute herself being in a bucket of water. That was the BEST!
